I can't really explain my mood right now. Or really my mood for the past few days. I find myself getting tired by the middle of the day even after a good amount of sleep. I have literally no appetite, which is REALLY weird for me. I haven't had a full meal today. or yesterday. I don't even get excited about stuff. I mean, I'm happy when I'm at broadway bound,etc. but like I don't really feel like I'm experiencing it. I don't feel like I'm experiencing anything. I just feel like I'm going through all the motions of my life. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm not necessarily unhappy about anything, nothing bad has happened to me recently. Well nothing that would change me so much. Also, when I'm getting ready(hair,makeup,etc) I feel the way I used to feel while getting ready last year, and 7th grade. It's hard to explain, no one would understand. There was a certain way I felt then, and a certain way the music sounded to me. It's as if, it's not really there. Just sort of background music, like in a movie. This entry isn't going to make since to anyone, and I don't know why I'm writing about something like this, but it is my diary, so I can write about whatever I want to. I read my diary from 7th grade today. The whole thing, and that was a long diary(I wrote like every day for the whoole year). It made me sad just to see how silly I was. Every entry mentioned HIM, and how in "love" I was, and how positive I was that we would end up together. I was so sure it was more than a crush, and there was a reason I liked him so much. But now I see that everything I thought for 2 years was wrong. Everything about me for the past 2 years was wrong. I wouldn't say I wasted two years,per say, but there were plenty of things I should have been doing instead of daydreaming and planning what it would be like once HE asked me out. I wouldn't mind liking someone now, but if it meant I would act like THAT again, then I would rather just be single. I guess I should end this entry. If anyone reads this whole thing..you're very cool because it's a rather boring entry.