So I already wrote an entry tonight. But I'm not finished. I think too much about him...I think about that night, God, when somewhere(jn my not completly sober mind), I thought I had a chance with him. What was I thinking? SERIOUSLY. If he had wanted me then he wouldn't be trying to hook up with one of my friends right next to me. If I could go back to that night, I'm not sure what I would have done differently. I wish I could say that I wouldn't try to hook up with him, but for some reason I don't believe that. I think I would still try. We don't choose who we like, we can't control our emotions for people. Right? And you can't make someone like you, no matter how bad you really want them. And all I can think is that I haven't grown up since 7th grade. I'm still the same way I was then, except more forward and stupider. I just wish.....