Today, Birdie's last matinee, went well. Until I realized it was exactly that, the last matinee. With only 4 shows left to go, it's becoming more and more real. Will we still see eachother again? Will we keep in touch? I've made such great friends, Abby my "girlfriend", Katie my "BFF", Mackenzie and our secret handshake, and tons of other wonderful people. Making friends through a play is sort of like a summer romance. It's wonderful while it lasts, but once the summer's over, you worry over whether or not you will continue to be friends. Some of them are going off to college, some will still be in town, but none of them go to the same school as me. I know we will still talk to eachother online and stuff, but it will be so different from seeing eachother practically every day. It makes me so extremely sad to know this is almost over. Maybe I'm worrying for no reason. But for some reason, I doubt that. What will I do w/o them? They've made me happier than I've ever been. I mean I know if I continue theatre, I still see some of them, but I will probably never do a play again with some of them such as Emily since she's going New York. I'd prefer not to think a/b all of this, but I can't stop. Even when I'm onstage, or backstage talking to them, there's this part of me that remembers it's almost over. I wish I could go back in time, redo it all. I wouldn't change much, except for maybe trying to make friends like the first day of rehearsal, instead of waiting for people to befriend me. I doubt anyone from the show will read this, or if anyone at all will read it. Why would you wanna read such a boring, depressing, entry that just goes on and on with random thoughts. But if any of my castmates to read this: I love you!