To try to describe how I feel right now seems almost impossible. I mean I am just REALLY UGH. I'll try to make this short, and somewhat G-rated, but the cuss words will eventually slip in. First of all, I went to school today really just not wanting to be there. That shouldn't shock anyone since I literally hate school more than I've ever hated anything. Like, I dread every single moment of the school day. I finally gave up, and called my mom and said I didn't feel good and to come get me during French(4th per.). I mean, I really did feel sick, but maybe if I didn't hate school so much, I would have stuck through for the full school day. Then, I snuck to Mellow Mushroom with Catherine which made me feel better about things. We just talked a/b shows she's been in, and dads, and stuff. Then, we went to the theatre. It was as usual, chaotic and things were missing, and i was waiting for my magic wand to appear and make everything better but it didn't. Once the halos were found, and Leighton found some substitute jeans I thought things would turn into okayness. I was wrong. For the past few rehearsals, a very nice mom has been helping me with the 4 littlest kids since I also have to make sure Leighton has her stuff together, and hung. Well, today Garrett's mother waltzes in and steals that lady's job which upset me because I liked working with the other mom. She was sweet, and helpful. Garrett's mother, Cindy, moved my 4 kids to the area where ALL the other female cast members have to change costumes and such. I tried to politely tell her they HAD to move now, and she moved them which was good, and I thought that would be it with her. Again..WRONG. She started complaining a/b how I put her neice, Mariah, onstage without a shirt on yesterday. I explained I thought there should have been a shirt under the vest she put on, but the little girl told me it was supposed to be by itself. Well, she was lying and she told her mom I told her to go onstage without a shirt on!!!!!! ARGH! So I tried to calmly tell her it was a misunderstanding, I was sorry, blah blah blah. I didn't prefer her attitude towards me, nor did I like that I really didn't have a job today. So in my selfishness, I went upstairs and pouted and complained a/b that lady to Catherine, Alana, and Maria. Well, right after I finished venting, the lady watching over Broadway Bound kids came up and started compalining to me a/b how I was talking bad a/b her SISTER. Well, I knew I was in deep shit then, but since that lady was also rude, and started bitching at me a/b her kid without the shirt drama. I had just a/b had enough, so I turned off the polite, manneristic girl I usually am and switched to bitch mode. I told her maybe if her she had done what a mom does and put her costumes together in a more orderly fashion that wouldnt have happened. When she told me I was disrespectful to her sister, I told her that her sister treated me with NO respect, etc. Then, she complains of how she doesnt want to be there helping out and stuff, and made herself sound so holy since she was giving up 2 hours of her time. I explained that I DID want to be there doing all the stuff she and her sister had taken away from me. We continued to argue for another like 10 minutes until finally I just gave up and went to the dressing room. Cate came in and told me it would be better to apologize, well when I attempted to apologize the lady basically just agreed that I was rude and never really accepted the apology, thus I was pissed. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention the only reason I took Cate's advice and apologized was because the lady threatened to talk to Dedra a/b me. Anyways, I subtly took back my apology, and went downstairs. The second I was downstairs, I just started to cry. Hannah(Mount) came up and asked for me to tie her angel gown and put her wings on, my hands were shaking while I tied it, and I was trying to hold back the tears. After a few more seconds, I couldn't anymore and I was in a full fledged crying session. Hannah(Barton) came up and tried to make it better, and ask me to explain but I wasn't really able to explain, then other people noticed I was crying, and I was trying not to get embarassed because I don't really like for people to see me cry. After Hannah told me not to worry a/b it and stuff, I went upstairs to collect myself, and wash my face off. The rest of rehearsal was okay, though I'm still just really upset because now I really don't have much of a job, and those 2 women just REALLY got to me. I mean I know I shouldn't let them since they were lacking in class and manners, but I can't help it...ugh. Once I got in the car, I realized I have school tomorrow and that added on to my upsetness...I really hate school..like SERIOUSLY.