I did not get into Oklahoma. That fact has basically ruined my mood. I hate not being talented. I HATE HATE HATE not being talented. I mean I know as a performer I'm supposed to be like "oh well, this show just wasn't right for me, I'll try harder next time, etc", but I guess I'm being unprofessional and feeling really bad about myself. I mean it's not that I wanted to be Oklahoma itself...I just wanted to be in a show, on stage. I wanted so badly to just be in a cast because there's no better bonding experience. And now I have to wait until Beauty and the Beast(unless of course I don't get into that show either). I am happy for Cate though. I'm not going to hold a grudge or anything because good friends are proud of their friends when they succeed. I just hope I can stay strong, and not having any more breakdowns like the one I had earlier tonight. GOD I just hate the fact I didn't get a part. ugh. It physically and emotionally hurts.