Did you know that some people are practically dead before they really die? I feel liek that sometimes. Like I'm physically alive, but that I'm generally numb to emotions and life these days. I forgot to mention in the previous entry who I saw last night. I saw Abby. If you've been reading this diary from begginning to now you understand who that it is. If not: She was one of my best friends in Bye Bye Birdie, and I can honestly say she changed my life. She's such a free spirit. But It's been almost a year since auditions for Bye Bye Birdie, and some people can't be in your life forever. She is one of those people. Seeing her again, at Lizards Thicket, was weird. She walked in with pink hair. Only Abby. I went to hug her, and the hug was so different from all my previous abby hugs. It was a light hug, not tight or long. I'm sure this all won't make since to a lot of people, but I guess you could just say it was bittersweet to see my best friend of the summer. So school today. Yeah. I can't completly understand why people make fun of me. Today, I didn't have one class where someone didn't make fun of me for various reasons. Then of course Mr.Berzins told Mr.Goff to ask me a/b me and drews relationship in front of the whole class. Guess What! I am so fucking pissed. Mr.Turner also took part in pissing me off. He so unfairly graded our projects. How the hell can he prove if we procrastinated or not? Asshole. I'm sick of talking a/b grades. I will tell you the one good think from my day. Something so small. Morgan. She said hey to me because at the last game she promised she was speak to me every day at school. But other than that school sucked. Then here's some really shocking news that no one will believe. I told the new guy that I like, that I like him, and well I'm sure you can guess the ending: he's not interested in me. I came home and slept until 7. Please, Please let tommorrow be better.