well, I wanted to write a really happy entry a/b rehearsal and stuff, but tonight sorta made me not really happy, but I will try to contain that unhappiness until i get to writing a/b tonight haha...does that make since? At first, everything became SO very hectic for like 2 seconds I started to wonder what have I gotten myself into? but then it started to be a lot of fun. I'm really only in charge of the kids so I just sorta stay in the stairway making sure the little ones don't wonder off, and making sure everyone changes when their supposed to. Oh yeah and getting leighton's costumes thrown at me to hang up..leighton's quick changes are actually my fave part because it feels so chaotic and exciting. I also feel like I know a lot...just because I'm working with 6 year olds haha. Like, I know how to tie shoes, and I know how to undress and dress, and I also know where to get tissue. haha. Hannah and Angela do an amazing job backstage, I could never do their jobs..I would become a smoker or something lol jk. I'm just soo happy Dedra gave me this opportunity! After rehearsal, I had to rush home and get ready for the Holiday Market. When I got there, we had to sing some christmas music, and there were solos in between the group songs. During Let it Snow the girl right behind me on the riser FAINTED on me. lol well not literally on me but she pushed me on her way down, and I lurched forward. I think I did a good job covering it all up though. I started to sort of dance to the music and smile more and stuff as I sang, while a lady helped that girl offstage through the back lol. It was quite a spectical. After we sang, I shopped around a bit, but my stomach started to hurt so I needed to leave, but my sister was mad because she wanted to stay. So in the car we started hitting eachother and such..and I kid you not a/b that. We were slapping eachother and yelling. Ah sisterly love. Tonight, I went to Kat and Jordan's party. Everyone looked sooo pretty dressed up. Like, even Emily Demouy looked nice. and the guys...our guys just shouldn't come to dances. Unless they had a girlfriend, our guys just sort of went outside or acted like losers or sat in the corner...grow up. Then, I asked Drew to dance because it was the last slow song, and he turned me down which is really gay. I mean seriously! I looked pretty tonight, I can admit that. I mean I'm honestly not being conceited, I'm simply saying I never think i'm attractive, and tonight I felt really pretty so if he doesnt want to dance with me then fine, it's his loss not mine. I think that's the thing I never comprehended...maybe it's me thats too good for jones and patrick and drew. Like I always thought that they were just too good for me, but i mean...looks?lacking in that department, and personality..let's not go there. This is my diary too. So if I want to freakin complain and use names then I will. and if anyone has a problem with it then just don't read my diary!! Oh yeah, and I love Leslie and Ashlee and Molly a lot. And I really can't believe I liked Drew..jerk. I'm actually in a good mood right now too!