So, last night I had one of my breakdowns. I'm not going to explain what all it was over because that's what the private entry was for, and not everyone needs to know about. Hannah talked me through it, but then once I got in my bed, and the lights were all out, I just started crying. I don't know that I've cried harder in my life, except for when I found out Mrs.Cass passed away. The main problem in my life isn't that I fear my dreams won't come true, or that I'm fat...it's that I don't have a bestest friend. Like, I have best friends(Leslie,Cate,Hannah,etc). But I don't have that one best friend that's higher than anyone else. I mean I know you can have more than one best friend, and I do. But everyone has that one person they care for more than all of their other friends. Hannah has Catherine, Molly has Amye Kate, Leslie has Ashlee,etc. Lantye used to be my bestest friend, but we grew up, and we changed, and I don't know that we can ever get back what we once had. Well, I know we can't. And I just layed there in my bed, and prayed to God that soon I will get a bestest friend. I wished I had someone to call at that moment(which was around 12:45 am), but that's only something you do to your bestest friend. This is entry is whiny. boo.