well today is Sunday, a very good day to be alive. idk why I am in such a good mood, well I kno exactly why LOL....... it all began on Friday and flippin sk8 u. i was down about shit, lol him and I was thinking to myself... well this night is gonna suck. and I was missing him, because well sk8 u was a special place. but yea, for a while now I've been trying to get over him and somehow something comes up, someone tells me something that gets me thinkn "what cudda been..." so yea then I got into a depressed mode because well, we're probably never going to work again. and I never really get over him, I just learn to hide my feelings really well and then those feelings come creeping back, yea ik its stupid but thats the way it is. Idk why he always finds a way to get back into my head, but he does. so then this STUPID asS SONG [Mario- "How Could U?"] came on and yea it made me tear a little because thats the way I feel. How could you let somebody lay where I layed? How could you give her everything that we made? How could you call her all the names thaat u used to call me? How could You How Could You just forget bout me? How Could You teach her all the things I taught You? How Could You put me in the back and give her the front seat? How Could You How Could You just forget bout me? it was always in the back of my mind that he just forgot about the while we spent together, the times, the feelings, it made me feel bad. it made me feel like I didn't matter to him anymore. then I have people that talk to him tell me that he does still care. and its like "ugh, wtf!?" so yea... then I went to Kara's house and we talked about it, and she made a really good point. that he just doesn't want to get close to me again because he knows that it would be serious and that boys at this age dont want to be serious because there is so much potential; and it just clicked. why else would the boy tell me he still cared, but not want to go back out with me???? it made perfect sense, and it really gave me peace of mind. I just hope that when he wants to have a decent relationship with someone, like 5 years from now and shit... that he'll know who wants it the most. *smile* and thats why I'm happy. "look for the thing that keeps coming back..its ur destiny"-mk