omgoshness, i just got done talking on the phone with my darling for 264 minutes and 40 seconds! it was wonderful! thats almost 4.5 hours straight of talking to him. ugh i love him. but we aren't together yet. everyone is prolly sick of my bullstuff with him already. lol me hurting him, on and off not knowing what i want. yes i feel bad, but i was stupid back then. ik it was only like two months ago... but that was the end of a 11 month thing, ya kno? he caught me when my wound was just about healed. and i wasn't ready to get in too deep with someone again. but now i am. i swear i am. and i kno he's heard this before. and i kno that he has every right to be hesitant, hell i'd hate it if he wasn't. i would be scared for him. he has every right to be careful in what he gets into. i am a confusing girl, but i am sure now hunni. i am so sure i can taste it. i want you, i love everything about you. there is not one thing that i dont like about you. you're wonderful. i love you. to the fullest extent. "I been likin u." lmfao i love you. ugh i love you. lol ahah, gosh. idk... but tonight sure was awesome and i loved every minute of it. almost as good as dan jansen... but at dan jansen we were connected both physically and emotionally. i feel him with me. i feel his devotion, his love. i feel it. when its me and him. omg i love it. i have him all to myself. no ugly hoes there to try and take him away from me. lol. no one but me and him. and omg, when he's just there holding me. [[i melt times 10000000000000000000000]] he is amazing. and ugh. i never want to let him go. if only he would grab onto me, for the third time in our life that should give you something to think about... o and btw I want a boy. A nice and bad boy. A boy who has shaggy hair and lets me play with it. He'll tell me we're like Corey and Topanga. He'll give me his favorite sweatshirt. He'll call me at 3 am and ask me what i'm doing. He'll tell me he couldn't fall asleep because he was thinking about me, and he needed to hear my voice. He'll text me every morning before school saying "Have a great day babe I love you!" And he always whispers something sweet in my ear. He'll take me to a concert to see his favorite band. And he wont get embarrassed to tell me he loves me in front of his friends. He'll always make me feel better because he knows the perfect things to say to me. All of his friends will know we're in love because he'll talk about me to them. He'll stay up with me all night when im sick. We always end up laughing about silly fights. Even if we're a million years old, butterflies will still go crazy inside of me ... Everytime he kisses me. He'll introduce me to his friends as the coolest girl he's ever met. He'll buy me jewelry and bouncy balls from vending machines. We would have contests of how far we could spit our gum, or how far we could jump off a swing. He'll take walks with me in the snow, and we'll catch *snowflakes* on our tongues He would grab my waist and kiss my neck. And we'd always take pictures in photo booths. He'll let me go places with his mom. We would play tag and not care whos watching. We'd kiss in the rain. And when I hear him speak, I'll fall in love all over again. I want a boy who can argue over stupid things with me, and than go totally soft when I got sad and apologize. I want someone who would lay with me outside under the stars. Someone who will squirt me with water guns in the house. When we kissed our hips would be pressed together. I want someone to be there no matter what. I'll be his everything. And he'll be even more to me .. I find everything like that in my darling. :D i love you. nite all.... ty for all the comments... esp from my darling.