alright so i am sitting here at 1:56 in the morning on a school night because now i am awake. i fell asleep early because my sleeping habits are pretty much fucked. haha. its nearing the end of the school year and my God i am ready for it to end. i hope i dont hate going to school next year. we're gonna be juniors guys. i am happy that this is all going by so nicely. ok scratch that, quickly. nothing about this year was good at all. i had a beautiful summer and thats probably why i had a shitty school year. lol its my own fault. for putting too much time and effort into someone who can't handle that. it angers me to have wasted my time, but i'm young... i do stupid shit sometimes. i love the fact that i have no regrets though because i really don't. everything i've done, i've done because i wanted to. i take the consequences that come along with my actions too. its a shame that you're mad at me and its a shame that we can't be friends, but unfortunately thats the only take i have on this situation because i can't care anymore. i've told you that you've won, i hope you're happy with that. goddamn it child, i just hope you're happy; eventually. on to bigger and better things, mom is making a doctor's appointment and i have to write down all the stuff i eat and don't eat and what time of the day i get my stomach aches and stuff. i work tonight and for that i am excited! jon will be there so i'm sure i will have a good time. =] i think we're becoming better friends and nothing more. i dont really want to get into something, but i do like where this is going. lol. i just love having good guy friends like jeff, marcelo, and joe. those boys are my life. =] along with my girls and everyone else who i love. tehe. other than that, life has been ok lately. i'm just trying to bounce back from everything. by everything i mean this stupid situation that was blown out of proportion and severly damaged me to the point where i can no longer care. its time to let go felicia, face the reality that the person you loved (hmm, in this case people.) aren't the people you thought they were. or they changed. but i thinks its the matter that they just arent the person they seem. they are fake. and i hate fake people.