ugh wtf my family is so goddamn retarded. i have ninty one dollars in the bank because my mother took all of it out. "i'll give it back." its not about that, its about the fact that you even need to take my money in the first place. i am just so pissed at her today. i've been pissed at her for months now. she is so completely irresponsible and i am trying hard to not be like her. its not working. i am so mad. ugh ugh ugh. i dont wanna be like my mom. ever. i want a new account thats mine. i hate being young there are so many disadvantages to it. you get treated like shit. legally. people tell me i am so wise beyond my years, but that wont get me my own checking account. i've been wanting to save up my money, but its hard when i have my account in my mother's name. mother fucking bitch. and my sister. i ate her lunchable and it was turned into a huge ass argument. lmao. ugh its not funny because she pissed me off. i'm so tired lately and i have this constantly gnawing pain in my fucking stomach and i feel like ripping it out and throwing it on the ground and stomping on it because at least then it won't be a constant pain. lmao it will just be me dying, rather quickly. anyways. i go to the doctor next fucking friday. thats a week from today. mother fucker. ugh i just want to relax. i still have to go to school on monday to take my goddamn exams. waste of fucking time if i do say so myself. haha. health and accounting. i gotta make my cheat sheet this weekend. ughhhhhhhhh this is so annoying. i love accounting but i dont like this exam coming up. although i have a feeling i will do really well on it. i got 100% on the last test we took so thats good. =] umm. other than that i am so sick of fucking school. i am so glad it is going to be over. i hugged him today i just went up behind him while he was at his locker and hugged him. i didnt say anything at all... i didnt look at him, i didnt do anything. i hugged him and he knew i was hugging him and he didnt stop me. it was just a reassurance from me to him that i love him. it was good to finally do that. i'm proud. then i got to candice's locker and wanted to cry. lol. i love that school... but this was my worst year. it was still great. i'm gonna miss it. =] i hope this summer i get my life back. i dont want tummy aches. i dont want confusion. i want peace. i want relaxation. and i want action. lmfao. ok maybe not action, but it sounded like it would fit. ok maybe i do want action. its been a while. lmao! ahh, i'm pathetic.