well well well, long time no fricking talk. I have been so busy lately, but now i am here to talk; to you.... the people who give a damn enough to read this journal. thank you for your support, all the comments are welcomed lol. I act like journal is my life and shit. but it is fun to get all this stuff out and get good responses back in return. u have helped me a lot and i hope that some day I will listen to your advice, about Zach. I am giving him his space, and at the same time trying to regain his friendship. He is a stubborn boy, but believe me I know him like the back of my hand. :) and he knows I do because of a conversation we had a few days back. he said he liked me, but not enough to ask me out :( and that he will always have theat little place in his heart for me. I would love to get back together with him. I am not desperate, and extremely patient, so one day he will come back to me and realize that I am the only one that will put up with his shit for as long as I did. good shit, lolololol I love that kid, too much for his own good. He can go on likin stupid hoes. lol.... can ya tell I am jealous? ahaha, a healthy jealous. the one that doesn't wanna make you want to hurt the girls he likes lol, I love him way too much to try to interfere. :) otherwise life is good. I got drunk on new years, man it was so awesome. BUT I HAD the worst hangover the next day. ahhhh, bad headache. wow that was aqful, slept til 2. ahahahah hardy har har. but I drank like 14 shmirnoff's. man vodka is so the way to go. ahahah. then I watched all the college football games. boi was i in football heaven or whaT? Badgers lost the Outback Bowl, and I didn't even get a chance to see it, cuz I was sleeping, but I caught the rose bowl so it was all good. go TEXAS! hehehe, i was rooting for them because they had never been to the rose bowl, so it was kewl that they won and all. :) for Christmas, I got a whole mess of gifts. I got a lot of money. yes! the love of my life, is money. But I got a lot of clothes, and shoes! I got these new boots, man they are so off the chain....!!! AND... I wanted to get my McNair jersey! but it was like 60.00 so I was like fuck that. and I am just gonna save it for the trip speaking of that, next Christmas we want to go there! I want to be more fit by then, so I can mess around with some puerto rican boys. tho they are not my type at all, I think it would be fun. we wanna go down there for CHristmas! but yea, Idk that is like a year away so I am not gonna fret about it. but I will start exercising tomorrow! I am so gonna do my pilates. I used to do that like all the time. I wanna start lifting weights in case I wanna join softball this year. I want to be pitcher maybe, but IDK. lol cuz I had bad experiences with balls... and my chest, got the wind knocked out of me ahahah, it wasnt funny then and I didn't play softball since, but then again I was like 10 so yea, I think it is time for me to start playing again, don't you? I think it would be really fun. plus being shape is good in the long run, not only will I look good FINALLY, I will feel better and not think about things that bother me lol. well school is tomorrow, and the PACKERS WON BABY! so I am gonna sport the finest man in the world's jersey. BRETT FAVRE! NUMBER 4! I don't think we will go to the superbowl, but a girl can dream. we are number 3 in the NFL, so yea lol I will talk to you another day. let me know what you all got for Christmas and if you got drunk on New Year's! lol MWUAH! leab some lub