i hate it here. i don't like this place. at all. there is nothing more i can say. i try to get by day by day, but there are going to be times when i slip up, when i have a mediocre day and there is not one person that understands me. nope. u think u do, but ur life is nothing like mine. unfortunately, no one knows how i feel about everything. its like i have everything i want, but i'm just not happy. =[ ya kno? i bet u do. mm yep. school sucks. nothing more to that. i hate my classes, my teachers, everything about it. i hate the people who start drama, the people that don't. i hate all the people. i pretty much hate everything right now. mhmm... i wanted to change my layout, but yeah. it reflects how i feel about everything. everything in the world. there are subliminal messages.. lol. woo, reminds me of u.s. history. ugh, i hate that class too. lol, all history can kiss my ass. i have no interest in it. i have no interest in anything. see a pattern? so i was talking to a friend about someone and it felt good. =] it feels good to get things out that u need to. but i can only be so open with people. ya kno? i've lost my open-ness. it's hard to do these days. when i have to be so strong. secretly i have to be strong for everyone. me, him, her, you. lol that's how it feels. but no one gives a damn enough to even think that there is something wrong with felicia. and u know what? that's ok. i think that 16 years of being neglected on so many levels.. has taught me to be a stronger person. everyone thinks she has this wonderful life. BUT behind my smile are things u will NEVER EVER understand. kthnx.