wow, these days my emotions are off the walls, and I dont feel like dealing with that... I dont really feel like dealing with anything anymore. because I live a better life if I just 'dont give a fuck'. so yea... idk y I am even trying to talk about this because it hurts to try LOL....... I feel like an asshole. GAWSH, I think its PMS.. so maybe I shouldn't make any rational decisions [Amanda] LOL. Idk why I get like this....... but I do. and I dont like it. I am second guessing this whole thing. blah. moving on. I dont like to have to admit this but I miss him, its a different him I am missing this time. I'm so pathetic. I miss so many hims. him, n him, n him! lmfao. woo. IDK. errr... but yea. today was a gay eff-in day. found out some info. Bwuahahahha! sexual info. ahaHAHaha. good times...? lol. ahaa.. UMMM.. other than that. what the eff did I all today? nothing fun! O I DID FINISH MY WEBPAGE in Ms. White's class. now I officially have nothing to do. ahaa. so I will just eff around on sit for 90 minutes. ew. lol. I am a loser. help people that have no clue of what they are doing *cough*Zach*cough*, he's so cute tho. :D I don't think he has checked his eff-in SCHOOL EMAIL. LOL. grrr... ummm.... Tuesdays are gay days. and I feel sick. my throat feels weird. I think I got a DISEASE from Andrea. LOL I ate her out last night lmfao jk. man I am so damn bored today. right now. ahh! and I have no homework. and my room is clean. I think I should go to sleep. I am just tired, and feeling shitty. blah. well. I should go........! I will talk to you later. (I have no clue why I made that word bold. lmfao... boredom?)