lol I dont think we are going anymore because ppl already got the tickets and hell if I'm payin full price LOL I aint got that kinda money, so I will stay home next weekend, do something with my boO! lmfao.. ok no. I want to do him nasty tho! OOPS SAID TOO MUCH. way too much.......... moving on... today was an AWESOME day! well it was really eff-IN HOT man! Poppy said that the main furnace was busted, and that is just gay. lol and 4th block was awesome because I got to go back to Ms. Ruiz's class. she was happy to see me, as I was happy to see her too. man that classroom brings back 3rd qtr. memories! and this one dude was trying to teach me how to dance, but I am a lost eff-in cause. plus I hate dancing, I can't believe I even tried it. and Ms. Ruiz didn't even give me what the eff I came for. but it was funny tho. :D well yea, i just realized something last night. it was never that i wanted to get back together with him, because well we had our year together and I think that's quite enough. *the best times ever* but I wanted him to let me be in his life. we got REALLY EFF-in close [and don't tell me we didn't] and I think that it would've been nice to remain friends, close friends. Idk y he just decided to act like I'm not there anymore, make things all awkward. I wanted nothing but friendship from that point on. and through that year not only did I think of him as a boyfriend, I thought of him as the son type ish. where I wanted him to be able to come to me (or Amanda) for anything he needed. I guess I feel like when a mother lets her son go off... and like live his own life. I think it was because I caught him at a weird point in his life. where he was changing from boy to man (yes I am admitting that u are becoming a man.. thank me for that, LOL) and idk I felt like I was letting a part of my life go off and do its own thing, and I didn't like having to let him go like I did. I just want him to know that I'm always going to be here and that I love him, a deeper love. idk... maybe that was just a wasted 3 minutes of my life, but thats how I feel.... that kid is great, and to not have him talk to me anymore.... it hurts. :( but hey... one day this will all come back to you. other than that, nothing went down. UMMM.. I will talk to ya'll folks some other time? yes indeed. LOL... *loser*