i won't be using names for the simple fact that these people already know who they are. i think that i am over this whole situation enough to talk about it. sitdiary has been there through everything and i think that this needs to be included in here. i read old entries and think "wow, i've gotten a hell of a lot more mature." this has been quite a learning experience, this thing i call life. lol according to some old entries.. this was a rocky relationship from the start. it's like trying to get blood from a turnip. lol but seriously. i had a hard time getting over him and that caused problems. you have a hard time opening up, or at least u did. that caused problems. we are two completely different people yet two completely similar people at the same time. it can be a pain in the ass, but in the same aspect i love it. i really didnt want to go to high school. it was such a hard concept for me to realize. that i had to move on from audubon and move on to bigger and better things. i am going to be a junior and i still miss middle school. now i am better than i used to be, but i know that i have the memories so it makes it all better. thats another thing i have realized. that i don't need material things in order to remember the best times i've ever had in my life. i have something called a brain (oh and selective memory lol) and that keeps all of my precious moments in there. sure pictures are great, random knick knacks, its all so great to have... but i dont need it. its just the person i am. i remember the best times and it helps me get through things better. but back to my point of this entry. when i left audubon and you went off to king, i was so devestated. i'd lost my angel. my guardian angel was off to another school... without me. ugh i felt like shit. i hated it so much. i was happy for you because i wanted you to do whatever made you happy, but i was so selfish. you were so great to me and you were always there and you had such a big heart... but yeah. i had the hardest time letting you go and that was more than evident. then it didnt even feel the same when we would talk and you wanted me to spill the beans about my life but i didnt think i could trust you because i could feel you and him getting so close and it all just went downhill from there. for what its worth i am sorry, but i think its better this way for now. you have things to work on and i do too. just remember i love you. i always will. as for you mister. i think that one day we'll be really good friends again. there has been so much drama, but its your style. hell its my style too. jealousy, anger, hurt, love, yeah its all there. you are so cute and you will always be my loser. =] you can be as much of a bitch as you want to, but it will never change the way i feel because i know that you only do what you do because you want whats best for me, for everyone. i love you too.