joey58242: being happy together joey58242: sharing hobbies and good times this is WHAT we do!!! emevolaywonkay: true love is when you have met a person and you 2 fully understand eachother its when you to can fight all night and still manage to be happy you seen the person, true love is when that persons name never leaves your head its when you look into his or her eyes and see your whole world that is how I feel with YOU MATTHEW. XxSurViVor11xX: i guess when you really like someone and you want to spend the rest of your life with that person I do, I really REALLY DO! xheRe ii aMx3: someone u never get sick of.. someone u always have fun with and u can talk to them about anything I haven't gotten sick of YOU YET MATTHEW! and i feel completely comfortable around you baby. from amy- for some reason when ever i trun around you are gone when i loosen my grip you run love should not be forced i want you to love me on your own when i ask you not to leave you still turn why are you deaf to all my requests? maybe its because you dont love me . . . that is how i feel when i think about him and what he's done to me. every chance he had to be my friend he didn't take. everytime i needed him he was gone. when i asked him not to leave he still left. he didn't love me, and i don't love him. "I'm not where I want to be, but I'm sure as hell not where I was." I'd like to think there is some truth to that quote. I'd also like to think that I've come a long way. Unfortunately, I rush things too quickly. "What I really meant to say, is that I'm sorry for the way I am." I have wrinkles, and hopefully you can deal with that. It's not that ur not good enough, despite what you think. This is all about me. This is my problem. He's not better than you, I don't love him like I love you. I don't even love him at all. If I never saw him again, I would be happy. This is not about me 'needing' him. I know that for a fact. Believe me, I've established that a long time ago. I thought I needed him, but I don't. When you need something you get it. You try your hardest to have it. I don't want what me and him had back, because what me and YOU have is so much better Something that I actually care about. I can't live without you, I can live without him. I saw his flaws, you have none. This is not an Ally and Noah thing. In 7 years from now, I won't see him again. I won't want him back. There will be no feelings there. There are barely there today. With you, I don't need or want him. It's like when you have your mother's favorite cherry pie, and you think its good, but then you have your grandmother's cherry pie, and you think "OMG, this is the best cherry pie I've ever had, WHY DID I EVEN LIKE MY MOM'S CHERRY PIE TO BEGIN WITH?!" because you didn't have your grandma's cherry pie when you were eating your mom's. you didn't even know your g-ma's pie existed! give me credit babe. i love you with all of my heart and soul, and if i would've known you were out there, i would've been with you since forever. but thats not the way things worked out, and i'm sorry, very sorry. you are the only one i want to be with, i'm sorry for not moving on when i should've. i'm sorry for everything. I want to stay up all night with you, I want to wake up next to you, I want to have your children, I want to watch them grow up and be just like us. I want to see them go on and have their own children. I want us to be together forever, because i want to share so many MORE memories with YOU! i want to spend the rest of my live with you, MATTHEW KITCHIN and i want to make this up to you in every way. i dont want that to seem like i am in debt to you, but i want to make it up to you for putting you through that. you are ALWAYS in my head now. i'm sorry for the past. this has been 4 months i will never forget, and i hope u will want to continue. because i promise that you are my ONLY ONE the only one i want for eternity.