2:00 AM I told myself I was going to bed. I even went to bed early. Early for me is before midnight - and that's what I did, I went to bed before midnight. Why? Because I was exhausted. Drained and I don't know why. Online, just chatting with loved ones, and I'm about to fall asleep - fall asleep during the time that I most look forward to ALL fucking day. And I try to keep awake, but is it working? No. So I regretfully say goodnight and sign off. I record Trigun for my brother. A few years back, an online aquaintance was raving about this thing. And the brother seems to like it, too, so as I record this show for my brother - and have been for a while - I decide to watch it myself, you know, to see what all the hooplah was about - and, me being an anime/manga fan myself, I decided that, tired as I was, I might as well. Lo and behold, I realized that I don't have to record it anymore because, just my luck, the first episode was aired. Lucky me. It's pretty good, actually, from what I've seen so far. And yes, big weapons may be fun to play with, but they sure are dangerous. All in all, it was pretty funny. I've decided to record it for myself tomorrow night, since my time will be devoted to the beautiful Dellindsay. And it will. My idea on anime? I love it. Some people may tease me, saying it's a cartoon and whatnot - and I say there's nothing wrong with watching animation, or being in touch with the inner-child, for that matter. I look at anime like this: You have this kickass story - well, okay, sometimes the story sucks, but for my case and point, the story kicks ass, okay? - and everything has to be done a certain way, the people have to look a certain way, be of a certain age, have certain skills ... And do you know how fucking hard it is to find actors who can do Karate with such a small body, while warding off 12 footsoldiers, be totally suave about it and still have great hair? My point being, that it's extremely difficult to find people like that - with good acting ability - and looking just the right way, sounding just the right way, doing just the right expression ... so, hence, there is the wonder that is anime. Very few people actually respect that, I think. I know I was talking about something before I went off on my anime ramble ... oh yeah! Recording Trigun for the brother. Anyway ... you'd think as tired as I was, I'd fall asleep while watching it. Well, I didn't ... in fact, it did just the opposite. Laughing at Vash's character actually woke me up a bit. I went to bed after that, however, laying on my mattress on the floor - Why is the mattress on the floor, you ask? Good question. You see, gravity and I don't get along well when it comes to the unconscious world. For YEARS I would fall off my bed while sleeping. When I moved into my brother's apartment, I decided it was time for a change. So I did my room like a loverly dojo - bed on the floor, furniture all feng shui, even a little bonzai tree by the window. And Viola! With the bed already on the floor - that leaves practically nowhere to fall. Aren't I the clever one? So, anyway, I'm just lying there. And I'm lying there. And I'm lying there. Eventually, I just get tired of lying there instead of actually, you know, getting tired. The next thing I know, it's 2 and a half hours later, 2:00 AM, and I'm still awake - when I should have been sleeping since 11:30. What's wrong with this picture. Now, tomorrow I know that I have no work. No obligations. And being the reclusive Seth that I am, I will be going - you guessed it - absofuckinglutely NOWHERE. Which means ... I get to devote a full night to sleep ... Or day ... Regardless - it's an Ambien night. And that's good enough for me. And here I was thinking that I didn't need it. And, Lindsay, before you ask: Yes, I did remember to take my medicine. Thank you. And now, I'm just waiting for the drug to kick in. Doesn't this sound fun. When I wake up, there will be a dream entry to follow, I am sure. I always have fucked-up dreams when I use Ambien to sleep. Wish me luck. Mood: AWAKE Music: "Bother" - Stone Sour