I just thought I'd write an update and whatnot. I'm not feeling very well, so I'm just going to copy and paste part of an e-mail that I wrote to Lindsay. I hope you don't mind. Oh, and I won't be around much for the next few days ... stuff to do ... Harry Potter Day, Developmental Psych test ... and ... whatever the fuck David is mad at me for. I hope to figure that out sometime when he gets home. I went out today, hence why I'm at school, yeah. I got my book. I haven't started it yet. I won't be able to start it until tomorrow night anyway. And, uhm ... I went to MyAnza - that new age store nearby, to see if they had any wands or whatever for me, just to come. Want to hear something freaky? It looked almost exactly like Eiji's store. ((***Eiji is from a dream, who owned some kind of new age magic shop or something ...***)) I just walked in, and there were these crystal pendants hanging from this birch branch which was hanging by fishing wire from the ceiling - and these were the exact crystals I saw in my dream - everything looked almost exactly like the dream, but arranged differently. They had mint tea at the front - to serve to all the customers - hot or iced ... and all of these different teas ... and oh, it smelled so good. So so good. But I walked in, and one of the women who worked there took in my expression, and just smiled and said hello, offered me some tea and ... it was all so ... weird, but fascinating. I just hovered around there for a while, looking at all of the different things they had - they even had those oriental paper lanterns - I almost got one, but then I had to remember I was on a budget. And I just kept looking around this shop and the dog - this cute little puppy of the shop owner's - his name was Max - he just kept following me around with a little green rubber bone in his mouth. The lady came from behind the corner and asked me if I needed help with anything, and I just said, with outright honesty - "I know this might sound weird, but I had a dream about this place." The strange thing is - she said the understood. She said that I had to be there for a reason, if I dreamed of it. I felt like there was another reason I was there, but I didn't know what it was. I told her that. She offered me another cup of tea and said I could sit anywhere, just take things in (because there were these lovely armchairs everywhere that people could just lounge in and talk, hang, whatever) and just see if anything in the store speaks to me. So I did. I sat in this chair in the corner, sipping on tea, petting Max, and just looking around. The lady said "I think he really likes you." I asked her if he was this friendly with all the customers, and she said not usually. When I got out of the chair to look around, he took over my spot - climbed right into the seat and curled up where I'd been. It was so ... cute ... yes, cute. I can use that word, I'm referring to a small, furry animal. I found myself wandering over to another corner where there were a bunch of stones and I ran into the lady again. And I just, out of the blue, asked her "do you have anything to help me sleep?" And she started going through this book, trying to find me something. Amethysts, yes - but she asked me about oils and fragrances - I told her that I tried all of that a few years ago, the chamomile and the lavender, and it's like I've just become immune to it, even to the Amethyst. She showed me all of these stone wands - quartz, amethyst, onyx wands ... but nothing really spoke to me until she pointed me to the massage stones - and I saw this large, long, greyish green murky cloudy stone - and instantly, my left hand reached out to grab it. It was like it just ... fit my hand. I asked her what it was, she turned it over, read the sticker - it was Labradorite. I'd never heard of it before. So she looked it up, asked me if it was "Speaking" to me. I said I wasn't sure, but it fit my hand. And as she was looking up the stone, she said that a lot of people, when they want to feel something, or to experience it, will subconsciously use their left hand - because the left hand is used to get a feel of things ... or ... something like that. That stone never left my hand until I went to check out - but then she found it, what it meant, and she said it meant something about mental awareness and rest, tranquility - that it was basically hematite and amethyst rolled into one. She wrote down the meaning for me while I kept looking around. It said "Labradorite is named for Labrador, where it was first discovered. It is also found in Madagascar, India, Newfoundland, Finland, and Russia. Its distinctive flash of irridescent colors is known as "labradorescence." These beautiful flashes of color change according to the angle of light refraction, and may be blue, green, yellow, and pink, with the majority of the stone it self a dark grey in color. It is captivating to see! Emits a powerful light energy, from planetary sources and beings, to the soul of the user. Used in facilitating astral projection. Stone of transformation and utilization of the subconscious mind. Promotes intellectual, intuitive, and mystical wisdom. Stimulates brain, reduces anxiety and stress. Clears, balances, and protects aura." And that's just what I need. I knew I was there for a reason. But then I came to these pendants that were just ... dangling by the cashier ... Then, I suddenly asked, "Do you have anything, like a stone or gem or crystal, that looks like it has something inside of it?" We looked all over the store, but we didn't find any. And that's okay - in the dream, I didn't choose a pendant yet. I had to find one that was right for me ... I don't remember ever choosing one. Maybe I never found one. But then I went back to the pendulums - the crystals hanging from the birch branch. I read the instructions, also hanging from the branch, about how to use these. You are supposed to hold them, letting them hang and be still, then say "show me yes" out loud or to yourself, and watch which way it swings, then say "center" and it will stop, then say "show me no" and it will swing a different way, then say "center" and it will stop - then you ask "do you want to work with me?" and it will give you the answer, yes or no. Well, I looked at all of the pendulums ... and the first one my eyes kept going back to was this rose quartz one, with a sterling silver stop and a small, rust-colored stone embedded in the silver. I held it as instructed - I wasn't sure if this was going to work, but I thought I'd try, you know? So I ask it "please, show me yes" and it starts swaying right to left, like a clock. I was a little shocked, because it was actually swinging! At first I thought it was because my hands were so shaky. Then I said "center" and it stopped. I was about to have a heart attack. I asked it to "show me no, please" - and then it started swinging toward me, then away, front to back - perpendicular than what it had before. It was a distinct difference. Then I said "center, please" - and it just ... stopped. I was getting ... teary-eyed for some reason. And I just stare at it for a minute. And the lady started coming toward me to get another customer some tea ... and I just took a deep breath and thought to myself "do you want to work with me?" And it was still for a couple of seconds - I thought it was going to say no - but then it starting very slowly swinging from right to left ... and I just burst into all smiles, and a tear ran down my cheek. And as I wiped it away, the lady walked up to me with her glass of tea, and said "did it say yes?" And I couldn't find any words, I just nodded. I had to get the pendulum. I just had to. And I did. I got the pendulum and the Labradorite stone. The lady wanted me to come back again sometime this week, said she would have the owner make some hematite jewelry for me, and a birch wand, if I wanted. I spent a total of two hours in that place. That one little shop. As I was checking out, the lady said that my labradorite stone was still warm ... and that she was glad that I paid such close mind to my dreams, and listened to them - because they really are trying to tell me something. ... what do you think? Blessed be.