Well first of all what is with the comments men? Interesting? Is that all you can say? I mean if you aren’t going to say something then at least don’t comment Interesting. When I comment I think about something to say, or post something other than Interesting. You both put interesting as you’re first word! Ok I am done with that. Well I didn’t have my dream again... that is sad really that I want to dream stuff like that. It wasn’t like X rated or anything it was just simply in the arms of someone, which is really comforting. I like to hug you know that, many people may thing differently because I don’t like hug people left and right, but I think that is why. I don’t want to hug just anyone; I like to think that it means something in the end. Like when a friend is hurt, or sad, or when someone asks. Of course I hug my father all the time. Everyone says I have great hugs, and I like to think I do to. I want someone that I can hug and feel safe and warm in his arms. Well I think I am going to stop talking about love, it gets me depressed and I don’t like it when I am depressed. Well yesterday was a really slow day, no one was on and I had like no one to talk to. I spent a lot of my time making blends, here go look at them: Click to see them bigger


I think those are some of the best that I have made so far. Why don’t you look at some of the first ones that I did and see how far I have come along: Click to see them bigger See how far I have come? Well I think that that is all I am going to do for now, maybe I will be back later but who knows. Love to the Savage Garden Linds (p.s. not the band, it is a saying the Lestat uses that mean the whole world) †EDIT† Well i have been depressed for a while, i bet you couldn't tell. No one can really, i never share my feelings. Well because of that i am uber depressed now. Life is great, but now because of my dream i feel like i am missing a part of me. I need someone really i do. I know that i should get out there and start to look but really i can't. From things that have happened in the past i can't, i have a sheild that is my defence from love really. I can't look at a guy or no one and say i like this guy alot. Some one has to come to me and say that they like me really, it is a safty thing. I mean i will give anyone a chance but no one wants me. I mean no one, no one has ever wanted me in that way. I am really scared, i am afraid, my dream is haunting me. Everytime i close my eyes and start to relax again i get that feeling. I get really sad. I really want someone to hold, i have held this feeling of lonleyness inside me for so long and it hurts now. I want someone to make it feel better, but i am afraid because there is no one. i am really scared.....because i am alone.