Well today was a blow. I was actually looking forward to spending time with John, and what does he go do, leave at lunch. the one time I get to see him ALL week. I feel ditched. I know he read my other entry, and I know that comment was from him. And I hope that Im not the reason hes pissed off. I just don't understand. I thought that maybe since this year i actually have someone on this day it would be happy. but it wasn't. I felt ditched, hurt, and I just feel bad. I just don't know! Why the hell does it have to be like this again.