I am kinda upset today. School is hell, and my life sucks. I am upset for so many reasons, but i don't want to list them. Really all you need to know is that i am upset and you need to watch what you say. John is going to be going away for the weekend, like he always does. But i am not upset about that. Its just that i am going to miss him. And he says he doesn't know if he is going to go to Nikki's party, and i know i am not going to have a really really great time with out him. Like the party will still be enjoyable, but i will miss him alot. I had a great time last night, and the night before when he came over, and i just want to be around him all the time, i dunno. You make me happy, and I don't want it to end. I don't want to go home, and i don't want to stay in, i just want to be arond you. I like to talk to you, and be around you. It makes me happy, even though your main focus is to annoy me. I will miss you all weekend. I really will. and if you ever see this, then you see this. but if you do, you probably already know, you make me happy. On monday it is going to be mine and John's one month. I used to think it was stupid to count one month, but really, its not. I am finding out alot of things. I am excited, i don't really know why, i just am. I hope it lasts. Its not really that important one month, but its somthing that i will remember. Its special to me, and i just don't know exactly why. Its hard to explain in words. Well other than that, i don't really have anything else to say. I am sitting here in yearbook, and i think i actually don't mind being alone. I am not in a very good mood today. so i am enjoying the alone time. I can't wait to get home, curl up in bed. and take a nap. I am going to miss you John. I am going to write you an e-mail :) 7:38 edit...feeling a little sleepy Don't even know the hell I am editing. I just feel like it i guess. Well I have been bored all night. And of course I come home and I have to shovel the drive way. But really i did it on my own, but if I didn't my dad would have to, and he would complain and get all pissy. And my brother couldn't do it becuase he was sick, and my grandmother isn't going to do it. So basicly i had to do it. I am kinda tired, so i think i will read some more, and go to sleep. I could use a good nights sleep. Nothing exciting ever happens in my life thank god for parties!