Well I’m just sitting here bored really. Well I should be doing my writers craft homework, but then again, it’s not really homework. I choose to bring it home. I might work on it if I feel like it; I still have to have a shower. I’ve basically got no time to be on here, but after the last few days I just have to unwind. Well I have been thinking lately, thinking about what I want to do with my life, and thinking about where I want to be after high school. A few weeks ago if you asked me what I wanted to do, and where I wanted to be, I would have told you that I wanted to go into graphic design at Durham, and move in with John. Well that’s sort of changed now. For the longest time I’ve been contemplating whether I should take a year off or not and lots of people have told me many things. That it’s a bad I idea, that you will regret it. That you should, that it’s a good break, and a good experience. I’ve decided that, that is what I want to do. I want to take a year off, and still move in with John. But I don’t think I will be living here in Oshawa or going to Durham. John and I have been talking about things, and he wants to help his mother in Thunder Bay, but at first I didn’t want to go, so he wasn’t going to go. I though about it for a while, and that’s where I got to thinking, I’m already going to take a year off, and then I’m not sure if I want to go into graphic design anymore. So why not just go. So that’s it, after a small period of living at Johns house, we are going to save up, and move. Of course I’m scared to go somewhere new; of course I’ll miss my best friends. I’ll stay in contact though. I never want to loose the good ones. The only family I’m going to miss is my brother, and my father. But me moving out is a good thing. Because my dad can finally move in with Jenn. I know he doesn’t want his children moving away, but this will be better for us all. He can live with Jenn, they can be happy, and I can be happy. We will have a family, but I will just be away. That’s part of the reason why I want to leave. My father is happy, and sometimes I feel like I’m holding him back. I’m almost an adult now, and I can make my own choices, and he really loves Jenn, but because me and my brother he can’t really move in with her. I think this will help him in the long run. Of course I love my father, and I will stay in contact with him, but he can have his own family. Marry Jenn, and be as father to her two children. I’m not really a part of that, and I understand. Of course I look at Jenn as almost a mother figure, but I’m not a direct part of that family. I need my own family as well, I need to grow. I’ve finally found the love of my life, and I know he’s not going anywhere, and I need to be on my own with him. It’s not about sex, like some people would think. This is about life, and love, and a family. We just want to be together, and that’s how we want our life. Anyways, I think I’m pretty much done. I need some sleep.