Well I just got back from babysitting. It was ok. The baby woke up, but when I gave him his bottle he went right to sleep. I smell like baby powder now from holding him for so long. Well thats all the drama that happened. So i sat there for 8 hours, watched tv, and read one of my books, ate some junk food and i got paid 40 bucks for it :) I get paid for doing nothing :) Now thats the kinda job I like! lol Sitting along watching tv also gives me alot of time to think. I thought about things, and certian people. And just everything. Of course it gave me another headache. Im starting to have a very stressful life. With my dad alcohol abuses, and everything that goes along with that. To just regular life. Like worring about bills(yes i worry about the bills alot) I know almost everything(if not everything) that goes on in this house. At times i am the most responsible home, and are in charge of alot. Its hard work. Im really the only sensable woman in the house too. My grandmoter is so insane that shes more of a burden on everyone now. I am so worried, because i actully have to find a job soon that pays more than $5 an hour. There is just alot on my mind, and it is causing slight insomnia and headaches. Sometimes advil is just a girls best friend. I have so many issues, I need to write a really long private entry. I will do that later. For now I think I am going to go get some sleep.