Do you people that know me, hate me? Am I so unbareable that you can't even invite me along to social events. That you just can't be seen with me! I get the feeling that people hate me, are mad at me, don't like me, don't want me around, are only my friends because they are too nice to tell me they hate me, you come up with more! Really, tell me why no one wants to be around me anymore, tell my why people don't want to invite me to things anymore????????? WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fuck you all then. If you don't want to talk to me, or be aorund me, or even be friends with me, then stop lieing. I can think of a couple of reasons why people aren't inviting me to things, talking to me anymore. And all the reasons i come up with make me feel worse. People treat me like dirt, and i don't think i deserve it anymore! I feel like shit today, happy world! I wish i had never been born, it seems like i am just a burden to everyone. I actually cried today.... I cried when i realized what i really mean to people. I never cry.... I cried when i realized how many people left me behind, how many of my friends decided to ignore me today. I cried for everything. How about if i had never been born my father would be ok. everything would be ok. everyone elses lives would be alot better, and i wouldn't be there to screw it all up. Well i didn't cry today....i am crying right now, and writing down why i think i am crying. I am crying because i am alone. Without real friends you actually want me around. Without some one to say i love you. With out alot of things.... I am so alone it scares me half to death. I don't know why i am even know why i am posting this. No one really cares about me do they? Might just make it private in a while..... Or maybe its time for people to acutally realize what treating me like this does to me. What happened to me, how did i suddenly become this person everyone hates....