Well today is another one of those days where halmark has taken over. Not many people actually know what this day is for... well if you turned on the t.v. to see all the religious freaks you would figure it out! ok so lets all eat chocolate and get sick like i did on the weekend that Jesus died and came back to life! Me, i don't have a religion, and i don't believe in any type of god either... thats my believes... not many of them. o well, i think i ate too much chocolate... eww i can't belive i just said that... o well i did and now i have to pay the price.... plus my daddy (yes i call my father daddy!) wants me to eat turkey as well! o well i think i can force it down..just for my daddy. It has been some hard times for him right now, i can't really talk about it a whole lot because, well, it is his crap and not mine. I just can't tell the whole world. Right now i would do anything for my daddy to be happy, he is the best thing in my life, apart from my brother he is the only man that i can ever count on and love. Through the bad times and the good i have always been a Daddy's girl.. i think it is becuase there has always been this sorta rejection that i get from my mother, since i was born. When she was pregnant with me she hated me, she wanted to get an abortion, then she wanted to put me up for adoption, and then she stole me away from my father, twice. She has always lied to me and i don't really know why a mother can hate her own child so much but she did. well my daddy has been through some hard times, incase you didn't know my father is an alcoholic, he has stoped and started going to AA, which i am very proud of him for. but a while ago my father had a little slip, well a big one, it almost killed him. amanda has seen the car and that is why it is trashed. My father almost killed himself drinking and driving. It was a whil ago but back then i really didn't want to share it, but now i am for the good of everyone. People always have to learn the hard way, by exapmles. well my fatheralmost killed himself, lost his licence and put us in dept. Right now he doesn't really have a job and we are doing really not ok. I am not asking for anything, i just want people to know why i love him so much. You are probably thinking what a screwed up family i have, but i stand as an example to everyone who even tought about D&D (drinking and driving). Well my father was really sorry, he was in alot of pain, mentaly and physicaly. but he is past all that now and looks forward to today, and takes it one day at a time (AA thing). I am very proud to call a man so brave as my father daddy, although he doesn't fight wars or save people, he had the courage to stand up and save himself. He had the courage to admit that he was an alcoholic and the courage to fix it. well i think that is all i can write before crying, yes crying, i do cry at sad things that effect me. right now i think i am going to change my bg make something cool :D Happy Fake Day everyone! (happy easter!) ------ EDIT!!! ------ well i made a new bg! lol i like this one alot! i think i might make a new comment pic as well! amd today i decided to number my entry! wow how exiting! lol well i think i am going to go and do some other things for a while.