I am getting these strange feelings of abandonment, and neglect. I am worried about everything. It mostly involves what happened at lunch. The fact that he moved away from me, I just don't know what to think. I am scared. I don't know what his intentions were, i don't know if he meant it the way i am taking it. I DON'T KNOW! i feel like i am being left in the dark about everything. I am not in a great mood right now. I expected this day to be happy, but it just seems like it doesn't matter. Everyone is telling me one thing, but my heart wants to do another. why does it have to be so hard? Edit: 7:35 Feeling: sick I have this funny way of making me hate myself, for saying things that I don't really mean. For diggin a hole for myself, and burying myself in it. I really shouldn't have cared so much, and I shouldn't have gotten upset. It was an innocent action, and I don't think he meant it the way he did. But now he isn't talking to me online. I don't know if its that his phone isn't working right, or he just threw it across the room, or he just put it down. I don't know what is going on... but no matter what people say, i am not giving up. Edit: 8:57 Feeling: better I think everything is ok, i am talking to him on the phone right now. he seems happy, and I am happy. He plays his video games as we talk, its cute :) I can't stay mad at him...for very long anyways. whee i am happy agian i love you