I think me and most of the people I know are coming to a time in their lives where everything changes. You feel yourself turning into another person, and you don’t like it. You look back onto when you were younger, doesn’t have to be that young, maybe just a few years ago, and you see that you have changed a great deal and it scares you. Most change scares us, and this one is no exception. This change could turn out for the worst, or the better. I think this is when most of us change into who we are going to be in later years. This is the change that will affirm ourselves as ourselves. Right now people are getting new values, meeting new people, and experiencing new things, and it is changing them. I can say for sure that over the years I have changed who I was, and what I was like. Not to fit in or to be a part of something, but rather to just grow up. It all a part of growing up and I think even though all of us are scared, we shouldn’t be. Its good to grow up, become yourself, no reason to be frightened. I find that as each day goes on; I learn more and more about who I am. For example, I used to not mind to be alone. Meaning with out anyone around, and without someone to love, but not I find that I hate it. I hate to be alone, I want to be around the people I know, around the people I love, but they always seem to be too busy for me. And then there is that fact that I am alone. Like single. I hate that, well don’t really hate that, but I would like someone to love, and know that they will be there for me when I need someone the most. Most people are scared to end up alone, because being alone is really scary. There is nothing when you are alone, you are just by yourself. Of course there will be the odd person you meet at the store or walking down the sidewalk. But they don’t know who you are. Everyone craves this feeling you get when there is someone there who loves you, knows you, and wouldn’t do anything to hurt you. There are billions and billions or people on this planet, but still we feel alone sometimes. It’s a horrible feeling to wake up and realize you have nothing to do, and no one to see because you haven’t talked to barely anyone since school went on holiday. I hate being alone, and I haven’t done anything since school let out. I haven’t traveled anywhere, done anything, and been around anyone but my own family. And the only two people in my family I can stand are my brother and my father. Everyone else gets on my nerves after a while. Right now, all I want is a friend. One of my friends to say hey, Linds, you doing anything today? Want to hang out? Just something to know that I am not being completely ignored. I’ve asked a couple of people if they wanted to do something, but I haven’t gotten any straight answers from anyone. And you know how it feels to get “I will try and fit you into my plans.” I don’t want to be fit into anyone’s plans, I don’t want to be “fit” in anywhere, I want to be in the plans. Not like people are trying to be nice and letting me join in their day. I’ve only had one offer to do something for the week that we have been off, and it has been from John, and it was a “If I wasn’t in Ajax I would do something with you.” I think I am going to go spend some more time off on my own, or with my brother playing video games. I don’t have the passion to write anymore.