Yeah, i am teh watcher. I see everything and i am a part of nothing. i dunno what that was all about, thats just how i feel right now XD Yeah, i am not totaly bummed, but i am a little down again. I just finished watching a movie, it was a cool movie, but it was sorta sad. I liked it. It was the story of 3 girls growing up in a broken family. The one girl was my favorite, she liked this guy and it was all sweet and weird. Like it should be, and he ended up being there for her when he mother died. I got to stop watching movies that remind me of my problems x_x uhhhhggg I felt kinda weird today, i can't really explain why. Andrew weirded me out in english, thats it XD he got all caring...o_o o well. I want to go to like a movie or something tomorrow with someone. not really alot of people, just a small group, or even just one friend. I don't want my brother coming along either. Not that i care or anything. I just want to go somewhere without him. I mean it is ok for him to hang out with me all the time. But there comes i time that you just need to get away you kno? O well. i wonder if anyone wants to go to the movies with me, i will pay ^^ yeah i got teh richness now! comment all of you, i love to get comments! [xeditx] Ok i am officialy depressed again. someone is rubbing it in that i am utterly alone. I want to say god, but i don't think he exsists. Really, i am so happy for all the people that are happy, but i have had enough already. EVERYONE I KNOW IS HAPPY! god, i am happy for you, but i am also i a little jelous monster right now. I feel so crappy right now, really i do. I don't want to be jelous, but everytime i see someone happy, i always ask myself why not me? Why can't someone just make my happy. i am turning into an emo kid, and i don't like it. I feel down, and all i want to do it sit alone in the dark. I want someone to find me and pull me out. I haven't met that someone yet, and it hurts. I hurt, and no one can make it better. well someone can, but he hasn't come along yet, or by any chance in a blue moon there is and he knows me, he is to scared to tell me. yeah right, someone, like me? not possible. maybe my lck will change, or maybe not. i hope it does. I hurt...and that hurts.... don't bother commenting, all i will hear is people who know NOTHING about what i am going through. Everyone is happy, aren't they always happy? fuck you all, i am tired of being the one who hurts. I want my turn with happyiness. I might be going with some people tomorrow, after school, but i dunno if i will feel like it. I just now it that something is going to go wrong, and that i am going to be worse off then before. please don't comment, really, i don't need any bullshit right now. not like anyone was going to comment in the first place.