Its been forever since I've used this thing, well maybe not forever, but a while. I remember when i used to write on thi like everyday, even if it was a short entry. I used to always have something to say. Well i still have something to say everyday, but its not as important, or i dont seem to have anytime, or I dont want the people who read this to find anything out they shouldn't. There are certian things that people just dont want to read about in the first place. Well lately, i've had a couple of good moments, and a couple of bad moments. I've felt like i've been forgotten. And felt like i was unloved. But then found out that it was a miss interpertation, and still feel a little forgotten. Lets start with the forgotten. Well about a month ago was my birthday, and my dad didnt have enough money to buy me a real gift. and recently, my dad comes home and is spending a whole bunch of money. And i didnt get a gift. Plus the fact that it felt like he was drinking too. And that just upset me. And stuff happened between me and john. He said one thing, and then we got into a little talk about stuff. and basicly he said that he felt like he should be over possesive, and over possesive to me means that im an object, and that i cant be trusted, and that he has to own me. and to me that feels like he doesnt really love me, and i started to cry, and everything came out, but after we talked for a bit, he told me thats not what he ment, and he does love me. and by the time he left we were all happy again. It was a messed up weekend. But tomorrow is school. And I have a lot of homework. =( uugghhh Save me.....please!