Well I just got off the phone with John. I really do like our little phone conversations. =O Yes I, the person who said she hated phones, just said she liked talking on the phone. I think its because of John. =) I love that boy, I really do. Of course he knows, Im just filling all you people in lol Anyways, nothing else has happened in my life, well alot of crap has, but not stuff I talk about in my public entries. I have alot of people that support me right now, so I'm not writing so many private entries. So most of you already know. Anyways I went with my Dad to AA today. I support him all the time. I love my father, and I make sure he knows that. Anything else other than that....umm Nope not it. It feels good to hear someone not in your imedate family say they love you. It really is. I mean in your family, they all have to. But to hear someone that doesn't have to say it, really makes you feel special. I have a new favorite song. Its an awesome song. Santana is awesome, but John didn't know who Santana was, and I am a little ashamed. =P It has Steven Tyler singing. It really is an awesome song. I love it =) Everyone should hear it! FEEL BETTER She said, I'll feel stranded And I can't tell anymore If I'm coming or I'm going It's not how I planned it I've got a key to the door But it just won't open And I know, I know, I know Part of me says let it go That life happens for a reason But I don't, I don't, I don't Cause it never worked before But this time, this time I'm gonna try anything to just feel better Chorus Tell me what to do You know I can't see through The haze around me And I'll do anything to just feel better I can't find my way God I need a change And I'll do anything to just feel better Any little thing to just feel better She said I need you to hold me I'm a little far from the shore And I'm afraid of sinking You're the only one who knows me And who doesn't ignore, That my soul is leaking And I know, I know, I know Part of me says let it go Everything must have its season Around, around it goes Everyday's the one before But this time, this time, I'm gonna try anything to just feel better chorus repeat bridge I'm tired of holding on To all the things I oughta leave behind It's really getting old and I think I need a little help this time Yeah so thats an awesome song. I love the song, it really doesn't represent any emotions at all. its just a great song =)