Well im certianlly screwed. Im going to get into so much trouble when i go to class tomorrow. But I know what im doing. Bull shit story, flash a scar, don't make eye contact. and explain why im sorry and try and go to class more. Well i think im officially done with skipping. No more shall i skip classes. Im done. Well other than skipping today :) Which was really fun btw :) I love John :) Well today I don't get to see him afterschool. But really thats alright with me. I can survive one day after school without seeing him. Im not that crazy lol Its alright. I think adam may not like me much, i think he thinks im being mean to be mean. Not like being mean like i am to everyone i know. So yeah, Adam, your my friend, don't think i hate you or anything lol Im going over to Johns house tomorrow after school. Im really excited, but again very nervous that his family wont like me. Ugh I have to remember not to wear any black tomorrow. I realized today that i've pretty much wore black every day. Not that i mean to. I have alot of clothes with colour...well....black, white, blue and red lol But i swear, i do NOT mean to wear black all the time. Meaghan has helped me along with a new obsession. The Rasmus. Yay :) then i got Randy listening to them. :) Yay! Well I skipped a counciling appointment the other day. And im thinking I could probably use them. but I think i might change who i see, and who i go to see. I don't know. I need to phone Pinewood and talk to them. Im just happy all the time, and sad at the same time. I have no clue whats going on with me. I drift off into thought sometimes, and John always seems to think something is wrong, but i know its cause he cares about me. But I don't know. Lately i've just been thinking about life. Well I told my brother today about my plans to move out after highschool, or some time after that. Well the whole story is that after my brother graduates, my dad wants to move back to the city, and if he decides to, im not going with him. I like it here, and i don't want to live in the city again. So Im getting a job, and getting my own place. I think even if they don't move. I know that my dad is probably going to marry Jenn, and i know for a fact he wants to move in with her. Both me and my brother are moving out. I think its for the best. I will still see him, but i will have my own life. So i might as well tell everyone else now. OK so not much happens to me. But i like my life alot right now. Well there are things that I like, and things that i don't like. but for those of you who know. my dads only got 3 weekends left, and that makes me happy. and hes working again. the only thing now thats really bothering me is that my grandmother thinks im a whore, and she doesn't want anyone to be happy. my mother being a complete idiot doesn't bother me that much anymore. I mean i have my moments, but im just so sick of everything now. well i think i've about said everything. there is a nice and long update for everyone to read. comment if you get through it! lol