Well time to join the so many on SitD and complain about how single i am. Not only is it bring me down, it is doing it at the worst of times. I have so many mixed emotions right now. I am happy one second, but one second i go into an all out feel sorry for myself. x_x I don't want to be alone forever, but i really don't want to go out there and find someone. I wish someone would just find me. I am so happy, about life, about school, and about my family and friends. But i am also sad because, well i am alone. It sucks, you see poeople around you that are in love, you see randome people on the street, and you think that the whole world is pairng up and you are the odd man out. Then you go to your friends to talk about it to them, and they all tell you the same cliche response, o you will find someone. There has to be someone out there. But really i don't want to hear that. Who is with me? I mean that encougragement is great, but really, its pretty cheezy. I mean if i was going to find someone, why not now, when everyone else is? But really all i wanted to do is rant. I don't want any, o you will find someone, o its going to be oks. I just want people to listen when i talk. I want poeple to hear what to say I am not saying this to get advide, i need to tell people how i feel, and i want them to listen, not to tell me that it will be ok one day. The thing is, this isn't one day. I want now, and here. I like to live in the day, not whats going to happen tomorrow, with everything that is going on in todays world, who knows how long we are all going to live? I just want someone that i can go to when i am down. I want someone to hug and hold. I want someone that wants me. But of course you have all heard enought about me and my ranting about how i hate that i have never had a first boyfriend, a first kiss, and not even a first date. But screw you all, this is my writing and if you don't like what i rant about, find someone elses diary to read. I need someone, but does anyone need me? [xeditx] Well it is yearbook, and where is randy?! I kno its payback from me missing so many days, but man is it ever boring when you are all alone x_x but it was ok, i got to do ao blend in class, and i was suposta. Dude i really do love this class, i am so going to ace it. I am going to be the best! wait, i am the best! Well it is 5 minutes before we have to go home and i am going to to go now, i will get back to you later. screw you randy, i don't need you or your tape >_< [xeditx] HOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMEEEEEEE!!!!! -passes out- god thank the devil i am home ^^ I got my drugs to. Advil is your friend.... well i am bored...screw off, i don't have anything to say x_x