Ok well i feel slightly better, i did have to come home...which totally sucked ass. I would have rather wondered around aimlessly in the dark then go home and face life. of course almost everything is ruined on this end. I don't mean my stupid emo shit about likeing boys and lack of boys, i am talking about real life shit. I talked to a couple of people today with what was happening. Randy was cool, he talked about it alot with me, made me feel a alittle more normal, and not so ashamed. We skiped yearbook and Philosophized about life and shit out behind the church...which was fun...sorta....o.O Then i just hung around Andrew, Thomas, John and Nikki for like 5 hours. Then andrew's dad drove me home....which kinda sucked, i was looking forward to taking the bus >_< lol i am so weird. But still life blows, and i wish i was someone else... but i feel better knowing i have a bunch of great friends are behind me to catch me if i fall. thanks guys.