ok maybe i wasn't to clear in my last entry DOES ANYONE WANT TO GO TO THE MOVIES WITH ME THIS WEEKEND? I really need to get out of the house and just forget for alteast an hour. Life sucks for me right now. I get the feeling that he doesn't like me back, i really really want to tell him, i wanted to do it today but i chickened out. I would feel bad talking about it over msn, but i think i am going to do that. What does everyone think? should i tell him today? comment on that, if i get alot of people saying yes, then i will. So comment with what you think i shall do. and if you say yes, i will tell him. but still...anyone want to go to the movies with me? []edit[] well i did it, and now i feel sick. i am sorry everybody. but it had to be done. now you know who you are, and i am sorry to you to. I just need a release []edit[] i am not doing so good now. it hurts, and he knows it. but of course i have to move on. I will only dig a deeper wound if i cry to much. i find myself crying for the first time in forever. i don't know why, i always knew the answer, i always now the answer. no matter who i meet, no matter how i am. I am just not good enough for anyone. I know it. and i have to face it now. i dunno if i really made it better or if it just got worse. but its all over now, there is nothing i can do. i just hope in time, i will be able to look past my pain and see someone as i saw him. It might take a while like last time, but no matter how much i want to be loved, i can wait. I think i can wait forever, anything to keep me away from the pain. thanx to everyone who suported me, thought it would be a great thing to do. It didn't work out, and it might take me a while to bounce back. i am going to go drown myself in my bed, and never get out.