Haha - funny quote - "I fuck you up and down, left and right. If that doesn't work, I have other ways" Well, its Thursday, 4 more days of Break. Today I'll be going to go see Bourne Supremecy. :) Can't wait till' Alien vs. Predator is out either! I feel happy, I dunno why, I feel happy, self-controlled and mature. I guess it has to do with the fact that my parents are gone. Whenever they are here, its always a lot of stress at home, besides the school stress I have. I don't even know how they'll take the fact that there's a possibility for me to go to the States this xmas. *sigh* o well....we'll see. Weather's nice here, but its not necessarily warm. I guess the summer has left us :D I still have to do some stuff for school, so I'm quite busy. Others than that, things are ok. I've talked to Rae this morning. For me, everything is still kinda in the blue, but fact is that we're talking and we're getting on better terms again. I'm trying my best to understand how things are. Looking back on everything, I can still say that I was pretty heart-broken at the time that things went wrong. My thinking was straight-forward, saying: "If she loves me so much, why can't she just stick with me over the time we're not together". I guess, thats what make distant-relationships so unstable. Now that xmas is in planning, i dunno...lol....I dunno a lot actually. Why Rae is dating Danny, when she sees nothing really in that relationship (if you can actually call it that). I don't know why she needs a reason for breaking up with him, and can't just tell him the truth, nor why she dated him in the first place. I talked to her on the phone for quite some time about this, and I do see the reason for wanting to explore the different aspects, but I mean, Danny's not supposed to be some kind of Lab-Rat for testing purposes. Overall it would make things easiest, if she'd break up with him over the reason she really wants to break up with him: That she doesn't see things working out and growing to an end. Might be harsh, but what in a break-up isn't harsh. Its simple and he's got to deal with it. I had to deal with it, not knowing what was going on at all. Rae told me in an e-mail, and I can almost refer to the exact wording,: "He goes to my class, and I think I kinda like him" "I just think I wanna give this a try", and that was basically the break-up. The break-up after the good times in Berlin and a year of relationship behind. "I don't think its gonna work out" seems to me less harsh...lol...it kinda sounds like the "usual" way of how people break up :P o well, her thing, I'm not bothered. And please, Danny, if you feel like beating me, feel free too...but let me tell you one thing: It ain't gonna change a thing! I've been where he would be at that point and quite honestly, and this is not sarcastic at all, I would feel sorry for him. *sigh* well I could use a little fight, so why not...but that would jepordize my visit. So again, feel free to hit on me...but it won't change anything. With all the depression, anger, problems and everything that has been building up since Rae left, it wouldn't be very wise to aggrivate me to a fight anyways. I'd let loose... enough of that. *yawn* gtg