I'm still mad at Tristan. He lied right into my face and he really hurt my feelings at the Teen Center, when he mentioned how I couldn't take care of Rae. To be honest, I felt something between being mad and being jelouse when I came into the popstical room for the second time and found Rae and Tristan holding hands and when I mentioned going to Safeway, Tristan playing around and telling Rae how much he will take care of her. My mind was boiling and thats why I swared at him and slammed the door shut. Even though it was all play, it really hurt me deep inside and things went worse when Rae went for a smoke and I knew about it. I'm glad to have talked with Rae, I feel better. Its sad to see how Tristan changed. Its sad to see how he lies and tells Rae how I would leave and she should come to his house and will take care of her. I'm scared. I will be back as soon as possible. I love Rae, I need Rae and I want to be with her forever and a day. I'll be there for her, just as she's always been there for me.