It's hard, and I have my own concerns and worries as well. I have no doubts about my return to Rae. Life seeks true love. For a while, I will be gone and those times will be the hardest. I hope Rae will stand the pain at every cost, and not begin with the pot again. I hope Rae won't have any troubles and will take care of herself, to stand up to people and tell them to leave her alone, to have no mercy. I'm mad at Doug. He asked Rae on the bus, infront of me, with who she lost her virginity and how she liked it. I tried to forget, but he had to recall it. It brings back the anger I had on that day. I could never admit that I was angry at Rae that day.