I just read and commented on all of Rae's entries at her SitDiary. It pains me to read some of her past posts. She always took it so bad, when I critiziced...like she can't take critisism. O well - lots of things changed with Rae... :( She's not really the person I got to know at the beginning - and I hope to god its only a illusion, of being here - so far away - in Germany. There's so much on my mind - some possitive and negative stuff I would want to talk to Rae about - but I will keep my mouth shut during the time I'm spending xmas with her. I just want a beautiful time with her. :( O well...gtg....*sigh* I'm still so down.