I really don't know what to think. Having had this conversation on the phone the other day, its like counting the days of my life. I love Rae so much. It cannot be explained in words. I would risk everything to stay with her for a life time. Rae means more to me than my grandparents, my father, my mother, my best friend or anyone else. Rae once wrote: "I never want to loose you" I never want to loose Rae, and I'm afraid of the consequences if I do. I'm not even sure if it was a good idea to talk on the phone, it really depressed and struck me. Rae admitted the fact that on one hand she loves me, on the other, she doesn't. Our Dream is fading, my world begins to crumble...