Sigh... ... ...lol, maybe thats all I gotta say "sigh", i don't know...maybe it doesn't even matter. I thought this trip to the U.S. was gonna be nice, maybe even something special - and now?...maybe everyone against this trip was right in the first place. but, what does it matter. From a broken family, to a broken family... Rae skipped class, had a smoke and got caught. Dunno if thats the whole story, she wasn't very talkative, as usual, but now she wants to move out, try her luck on her own. I give up - deja vu - haven't I given up long ago? I just don't understand it - but maybe thats just how it is. I'm in tears, I'm hurt and worst of all - I don't know why. Moving away from family, yes - I wanted to as well, I don't blame Rae...but I've learned that it doesn't solve the problems from the past. I wish I could help, but "how does anyone ever know the right thing to do?" I wish it will settle, and that we can spend a wonderful two-three weeks together. If it was ok, I was gonna stay for christmas... ...I see Rae did change so much, and its sad to see in what way. i gotta go...