Her smile gives me hope, but her eyes reveal a commitment, an urge to Joel. I'm afraid, afraid of walking back the road I came from. The Ring, the picture Rae gave me, the e-mails, messages, phone calls and Rae herself mean so much to me. Rae once told me I wasn't fighting for anyone; now I am. I'm fighting for my life; Rae. Rae mentioned that Joel would last a year together with her, yet I'm afraid; "never give up the faith in our dream" said Rae; will she?