I was pretty suprised when Rae blew up at me, telling me to let her live her life. Although its painful to hear, I wish she could just tell me what the deal is. Tell me how things are and how she stands with me. I know she probably loves me a lot - but I just don't see it at times, nor do I understand. She says I should know that and when I asked her to flirt with me, she said I should know those beautiful things I wanted her to tell me....but I feel like knowing is not enough....re-assurance is the keyword... I read through old beautiful e-mails she wrote me - about how she misses me and about some of her fantasies...and now I get to hear that she forgot how to flirt... :( i dunno what to do anymore...