Everytime Rae is gone with Mike, Tristan or even Carl, it starts something in my mind, that I can't change. I start to think where she is, when she's coming back, what she's doing. That however connects to a fear of loss, which is related to the fact that I love Rae, and that I care about her and I can't change being so paranoid about it. When I mention my concerns, it makes Rae feel too much taken care of, it pushes her and she pulls away from me, which I understand at some point, but its just this care, this fear I have for her that I can't change. I do know that Rae can take care of herself, I do know she has self-responsibility and part of this fear I have, and again, I can't change it, this fear I have could relate to situations that Rae and me have been through in the past. I only love Rae and want the best for her, not to hurt her.