I'm afraid, I'm very afraid just like Rae is. I believe that we're both scared of change, and therefor I cannot agree that change is good. Things can change for the worst. The way things are right now, they have become so perfect, so close to our dream. When I leave, yes things will happen and I believe we're just afraid of change. Rae, to me is a very special person who is very close to my heart and I love her. I'm afraid that if she begins to walk on the road towards drugs or depression, I'm afraid that when I come back, she will not be the Rae I once knew. I'm concerned about what she makes of her life. I hope she'll start to think more of herself, make decisions that are wise and good for her and know what's best for her. When I'm gone, yes I understand that I won't be able to do much and take care of her, and beecause I don't trust many people who she and I are afraid of, I need to be sure that Rae is capable of taking care, and really taking care of herself.