I think we're getting closer to our destiny. Rae's mom seems to believe in a future, to some extend, between us. Ok, I had enough, I have to let it all out. I've been lying in bed for over an hour, can't sleep, can't be awake, thinking bad thoughts. One thing I've found out for sure, and its scaring me; I'm falling under clinical depression. The fact that I fell so hard for Rae under these conditions, under this exchange program is too much for me, and I think my headache has to do something with it. I'm simply under stress or in other words; I've come to a peak where I've become to realise how much I love Rae and its physically putting my body under pressure, having to think that I'm leaving back for Germany.