I've got my dad's permission to return, I've got the money and the college plan...nothing stands in my way. Rae's 3 years of highschool stand in the way. Our dream seems to fade, I begin to think of Rae as the perfect one, that I'll never have...if things between Rae and Joel clear up and develop, the commitment to marriage, as Rae told me, will be the same as it is with Rae & me. The only difference I fear is that Joel will be close to Rae, Rae does not believe in us & cannot imagine me coming back, and she'll not wait and go with Joel. My life will end at that point. I cannot love no more. Rae ended up in the hospital, I'll end up on a walkway, blood dripping from my fingertips where once touched Rae's warm and loving skin. Cold and dead.