Rae means everything to me. Its undescribable, but all that she values, her grandfather, the barn, her friends, her thoughts and writing, her connection to an Indian tribe, makes her a very special girl. She's grown to my heart and has always been there for me. She trusts me, sharing memories of her grandfather with me. I trust her, sharing my suicidal attempts stories with her. She keeps me up all night. Her looks talk to me. Her heart touches mine. I care about her, like I'd never cared about someone else. I won't live without her. I can't and my dream has become so clear. My path in my future life will lead back to Rae. I will visit her and when the time has come, our future will be open. I will never be able to let her go. Whenever the phone rings, I get excited because I imagine Rae to be on the phone and whenever someone comes online, I always look for her screen name.