I've come to appreciate this diary a lot actually...its a place to run away to, and I think I'll write more as the days come. Well I'm on a week-long break right now and I should be catchin up with some school work, because my grades this year have dropped considerably, due to my depression and the situation at home with my parents. This effects my enthusiasm ofcourse....so I really should kick myself and do this right. *sigh* o well....Nini spent the night over the weekend. Nothin happened though, for those of you who worry. We got tipsy of two beers each and half a bottle of sparkling wine, and it was fun and all. She just felt a little sick afterwards and in the morning. lol o well...god I feel like shit actually...i don't know when i'll get a grip on myself...but I do have to think back about something that Rae once told me....its this place I live in....and from the moment she said that, I really think that its soo true...in the States things will be different (or so I hope). o well...I better go...